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Im freaking busy right now, if i have time for social life, it will be a miracle. NOthing and no time to blog about anything. So just one picutre i happen to found in my picture folder. i dont know where i took it from but ya...

It applies to me.

Frustrated.

Im definitely not a cut for those humanities stuff, be it since social studies, history, now economics stuff!!!! I definitely suck at that, worse than anything.  I cannot argue, cos i really hate to find evidence to support what i want to say. I dont like to prove something. And i dont liek to differciate whether is true or false. IT get frustrating where you cant get something you want. Since Fecon i can tell that i definitely cannot make me for those economics type of stuff, my dislike of it is since i dont know when ( way before sec school) I NEVER LIKE ECONOMICS STUFF.

And now, Fxmm is killing the hell out of me. need to prove that china manipluating currency how does it affect etc etc. I repeat, I DONT LIKE TO FIND EVIDENCE OR PROVE OF WHAT PEOPLE SAY. Im not a cut for economics stuff, i definitely cannot be an economist next time. Whats more, nothing is this world is actually factual, with the world so twisted and corrupted by politics, you can never know what is the truth. Of all you know, China may be the poor victim in this whole US-accuse-China-manipluate-curreny thing. Maybe its US manipluating the currency instead of US or wahtever it can be. For all i know, it has affected my life in a wrong way. And i feel like saying, I dont really care.

Im frustrated. Very frustrated.

Never run away from the past. (edited)

Ok, before i continue marketing, i should probably blog something. Thumbdrive is found. I thought i lost my life yesterday. ( Yes, i can die without my thumbdrive, i told some people at a certain point it is more important then my life.) But gladly i found it, thanks to the very nice lecturer whom i happen to met today, Thanks!! Although i dont know who you are. Never see his face before. And thanks for those who helped me and did whatever they can. :)

Beside that, just wanna blog something been wanting too long ago but didnt do it, hahah. I always tell peopel that i look different from the past. ( ok lah, some of my friends more drastic but for me hmm.....) Look like a total idiot in the past. And one more thing to show how different i am,

THis was me 3 years ago....

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This is me now... ( at least a few months back)

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This was when arielle decided to tell me that she has the exact same photo we took when we went out 3 years ago. ANd thereby the 2 photo here.  Taken at the same exact place, with years difference. I look like an auntie cum total idiot in the past. What was i thinking at that time. =.=

Well, but that is still me, im not afraid to show what i look like in the past, cos is still me. Unlike some people ( not pointing fingers at anyone) some just love to hide their past, and pretend like nothing has happen. FOr it once has happen, i think everyone should just embrace it. You may not be proud of it, but just accept the fact that it has once happen. If you do not like your past, just make sure you dont do that again. Sometimes, by expressing out, it will make you feel better.

There is a period of time, i wanted to run away from my past. and pretend something has never happen before. But well, it was stupid and i should have never do it in the first place. Well, learn from mistake. I should never do that again. After all, Everything i do, is just me. I learn new things, and i learn from mistakes also. Once someone told me that its a wrong thing to learn from mistake, should have pretend the mistake from happening first. But well, if that has happened, i dont think its a crime to learn from you mistake, people tends to mature more from that.

Im not trying to say people should hold on to the past and unwilling to accept the present and future. Instead, people should move on with life and move on from the past to face the present and future. A past should be existing where at times people look back at remembered how good/bad life was and make it even better now. You should neither try to avoid your past, or stay onto the past and dont move on.

What makes you now, is your past. Every steps that you take now, definitely affects the future, so carefully choose your path.

Ps: i found something similar!!! ( Im still a jacket person. =.=)

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I shall be normal for once, and update in proper. even though my life pretty kinda suck right now. But you know, so as to say im kinda juggling four projects at the same time. I need a break, because im currently stuck and nothing get into my head. WHich means, nothing is translated into my report. This is a very bad thing. i ahve like 2 submission this week. which im done with any. Next week i ahve 4. Please congrats me while i can kill myself. With the amount crushing me down, it is not surprise i might really faint one day.

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Randomly posting my girlfriends photo. I miss them arleady. ALways love to crap and joke. Be crazy all i can when i am with them. Ithink they practically dont care me le lor. :( Well well, you know time is best when i am with them, especially this last whole lousy week i have, the only time i am truly happy, is when seeing them.

Watched toy story 3 with them. The plan was to catch in on the movie last friday. But apparently tickets was sold out. =.= ( first time i encounter such thing) But in the end move to my house and watch it on my big tv!!!!!!!! hahah. We should meet up like soon!!!! Even though we just did recently. hahah.

A damn random encounter occurs to me, and i realised all my girlfriends are pursuing different field from me. WHich might be a good thing. Because as i have seen like many incidents, you just cant work with your best friends together. Not sure why. But seems to be the case.

Ok, time to get back to projects. Which after typing. i am still stuck!!!! :(

ONe of the worst days.

Today is like a roller coaster day where everything goes up and down. ( more of down i believe. ) where you can assure it is one of the worst day you can have. Tears cant stop streaming down, and you cant really cant say anything. ITs like once you open your mouth, you know tears follow. I think i scare quite a lot of people today. but ya. I dont know.  I think im fine now, ( In a certain sense) besides a severe headache and eyes naturally get swollen. Sorry for those i think i shock them and scared them, and kind enough to not ask anything. but ya. always in such a case of event happens, i always see one too many people.

Anyway, this weeks practically sucks, except for the time where i see my girlfriends. Nothing else went well. Today is like the conclusion of everything. Guess emotion doesnt hold for long, and when everything is being contained up.

Let just hope everything ends quick and fast. Hope i guess.

Four days seems like forever.

Sleeping seems so far away from me now.

This week has a lousy and tiring week. gotten back all my term test results, which prove to show that hard work doesnt mean anything. It may be fine last time but not now. I dont know waht to say anymore.Haiz. Im fine, maybe more like i have looked through it.

I have said this for 3 times before. But maybe, this time is for real. Why dread over it. Maybe liek this in this situation it will feel better for me. Maybe im just chasing the impossible.

well,  idont know. just give up i guess. fourth time now.

Happy ending.

This is the way you left me, im not pretending. No hope no love no glory, no happy ending. This is the way that we loved, like this forever. Then live the rest of our life. but no  together.

yeah, i will forever remember this song, in my heart deep down, as it has a important significant to me.

It was once said that scopio usually hide their true sorrow and keep their feeling to themselves. True enough much? at least for me.

I could really use a wish right now. (updated)

So many projects to do, so "little time". Well, hmm... should stay at home today and complete my work. So many things to be done. If everything goes well, i should finish 3 things today. Must at least complete 2 out of 3!! deadline already!!!!! :( Think for me being lazy to go out, and a bit tired of travelling, shall stay at home and do my work then.
And so well just i decided that today, my family decided to play mahjong!!!!! =.=

We shall see then. Hope it doesnt make me have bad mood. No time for that. JUst hope.

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One photo when i was out with my girlfriends last week. Miss them much. :)

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Just saw my schedule book and there are like tons to work to do.  Everyday i have like something to submit. It will be another sleepless week again. This rate im going, i dont know how can i survive. Especially with bad news keep coming, and people that are just.... simply to put, out to destroy your life. Its fine if you dont help, you can keep your comments to your selves also.  DOnt ruin my life tyvm. I wonder how am i gonna continue surviving. Life is not gonna get any better, at least for this past month. The last thing i want, is to have more trouble.

also, to friends, i wont be in the best of my mood lately, so forgive me. If i have offended you somewhere some how. I know some of us are rocking in the same boat, but of all you know, i might be in a worse situation.

Smile....

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Smile, my girl friend. i prefer you this way. Cheer up. You know im here. :)

A lonely road.

Taking a break from my assignment for a little while. And update my this hmm.... a bit dead space. As i haven really type much lately here. Well, i have reasons for not doing so, one reason is that i have no time, while others, i choose not to say.  hmm... well, last day of term break, and im spending it in sch, once and yet again. =.=

super turn off.

Well, this holiday, kinda bad. Didn really managed to clear anything much when i first told myself to. And i didnt really went out much too!! what was i doing. =.= Anyway, ian's chalet, went out 1 or 2 times pictures i haven upload. It is the start of school tomorrow, will be more busy after that. And im not looking forward to the submission month where it comes with a greeting of 4 graded assignment in a week, just great. Wonder how am i gonna survive that.

I see my dreams getting further away from me, and no matter how much i try running towards it, it seems to get further. I guess i can only keep running toward only.

Well, i think i better start on my assignment already. Enough of my short break, shall return when i know what to type, and when im free, that is.